The Daily Kanga

Valsharen is a dark realm mind based roleplay, where I was asked to 'go wild' with the surface. As I am a race leader for the wild creatures there and so.. yes.. I did 'go wild'.
It took me two days to landscape and move things around and it was well worth it and so much fun!
It was the first time that I ever landscaped an rp sim and I have to say, the experience will stay with me for a while. Everyone is pleased and in awe of the changes and that for me, is payment enough.

It amazes me, how some people just have no idea. 

After a long time of not speaking to this person, and them not speaking to me, but still on my friends list, the following occurs:

10:47]  Darbince Marder: Silver or gold?
[10:47]  Asadora Summers: mmm?
[10:47]  Darbince Marder: Which do you like better.
[10:47]  Asadora Summers: mmmm silver...
[10:47]  Asadora Summers: Why do you ask?
[10:52]  Asadora Summers: Oh... thank you.. that is very kind of you
[10:52]  Asadora Summers: Good to know that you have progressed in your endeavrous
[10:52]  Asadora Summers: *endeavours
[10:52]  Darbince Marder: Honestly... I don't think they're good enough to sell.
[10:53]  Asadora Summers: so are you inferring you gave me something crap?

And I told him what I thought of this gift, as he did only afterall, want an opinion.

Which I gave it to him.

[10:58]  Darbince Marder: No, if anything one of them never agrees with me on anything, but they are always overly nice when it's something I make.
[10:59]  Asadora Summers: they just don't want to hurt your feelings, I guess
[10:59]  Darbince Marder: Probably.
[10:59]  Darbince Marder: And your opinion?
[11:00]  Asadora Summers: I wouldn't buy an outfit like that, would not suit either my Fae or my Neko
[11:00]  Asadora Summers: It's more.. 'humanistic' and the bra style isn't a style that I like in particular
[11:00]  Asadora Summers: and there isn't much to that outfit, so, it would not be decent enough to wear for my Fae
[11:01]  Asadora Summers: And the blue is a big too dark, I like blue, but that blue was just a very wrong blue that would suit me overall
[11:02]  Darbince Marder: And overall opinion of the prim work and texture work?
[11:02]  Asadora Summers: well, it's not very impressive, I've been on SL for a long time and seen a lot of silks and much more detailed prim and texture work, so to me, it's not something that sticks out
[11:04]  Asadora Summers: Though it is a good frist try
[11:04]  Darbince Marder: Now see, this is pretty much what I think, that it was lacking in almost all areas and that it really does look like my first try at a silk.
[11:05]  Darbince Marder: Everyone else I've asked has told me it was 'really good and to price them at 400-600L'
[11:05]  Asadora Summers: what?
[11:05]  Asadora Summers: that is erm.. too high
[11:05]  Asadora Summers: more like 100L
[11:06]  Darbince Marder nods.
[11:06]  Darbince Marder: Thank you, you've been a great help.
[11:06]  Darbince Marder: Feel free to trash it.
[11:07]  Asadora Summers: I won't trash it

[11:07]  Asadora Summers: you are welcome, btw
[11:09]  Asadora Summers: Oh and yes, I'm fine btw
[11:09]  Asadora Summers: thanks for asking
[11:09]  Darbince Marder: I didn't want to invade your space by asking..
[11:09]  Asadora Summers: but you proceed to 'invade' my space by asking me what I thought ofyour outfit?
[11:10]  Asadora Summers: How does that make sense?

 [11:15]  Darbince Marder sighs.  "Forget it.. Despite how it came off I was trying to be nice."
[11:15]  Darbince Marder: I wont bother you again.
[11:19]  Asadora Summers: How was that trying to be nice?
[11:20]  Asadora Summers: Asking me how I was, first, as least would have been nice
[11:20]  Asadora Summers: 'Hey, havn't spoken to you in a while, how are you?'
[11:20]  Asadora Summers: That would have been nice

So.. none of that made sense to me, well one part did, that he's very selfish. He is no longer on my list and I believe mute has been activated, because he did not respond to my last comments. 

What an utter twat.

Oh well, at least he's googleable now:-p

The words you'll never read:

Trying to regain something from the past, is not allowing oneself to move forward.

The past is way behind, shadows of former selves, never to be repeated, never to be mended.

Things that were shared and given then, created together, is apart of that past.

It can not be regained nor contained.

It was not a 'gift'. It was a creation by two people, together, a harmonious union which will never be heard again.

When you disappeared, that was your choice. Your silent fleeing showed us all that you wanted no part of it any longer.

There is no reclaiming it now.

Now is not the time for closure. There was a chance for that, but the door was slammed shut the day you disappeared.

Enjoy the new life you have. Be inspired by your new experiences.

Look forward.

Never backward.

Please, leave us in peace.

---Residents of Gracie.

[11:25]  You: brb, gonna put supper on
[11:25]  Hendrik : i'll be at the gym soon
[11:25]  Hendrik : see you!
[11:25]  Hendrik : take care
[11:27]  Hendrik : 0X80FFFF color1 0 7f4e0315-481f-4f0f-9c70-4a5dcd92a646
[11:27]  Hendrik : :p
[11:28]  Hendrik  is Offline
[11:28]  Amras : Oh, Im just a social drinker.
[11:29]  Amras : Everytime somone says "Ill have a drink" I say so shall I!
[11:33]  Amras : The prodigal lizard returns
[11:34]  Amras : Hendrik has left, and Asa is now AFK it seems
[11:34]  Amras  titls his head. "So who in the hell am I talking to?"

Do you know what irks me about people and this happens most often in SL. It's the fact that when they... utterly piss me off, they continue to say 'Sorry... oh I am so sorry.. I'll make it up to you' about a thousand times over and over.

If you are going to say sorry, say it once; otherwise, it will only annoy me further and not do you any favours. 

http://www.metaversemessenger.com/pdf/2007/10/MM20071002.pdf

The article which is starts on page 25, is about the roleplay sim, Algarond, in which Asadora (me) frequents and is the Leader of the Faes there.

  Here is the full interview:

    "Fae Asadora Summers is another roleplayer who loves the roleplay here. Summers said, “The RP here is more fluent and organized, but still retains the freedom of true freeform RP. This sim is a far cry different from the other sims, in the difference of the outlay of the land and the overall setup. “I really do like the fact that there are no ‘cliques‘ here. It’s refreshing to see that within the Second Life roleplay community.”

 Well said, Asa!:-p

My college is in SL. It would seem that it is encouraged to us SLag and not against usage rules.

Grand.

 After sleeping two hours last night, I woke up from a horrid nightmare at 0532 this morning.

The nightmare involved SL and it was so bad, that I woke up suddenly with a massive headache. I could go into detail, explaining what the nightmare actually held, but, considering all things... it is certainly not worth it to have to think about all that stuff again. I kept falling in and out of lucidity. I cried myself back to sleep.

So, I'm taking a break from SL. My subconscious is not responding very well.

Besides, I have You Tube to keep me entertained.
Spring Break is next week. After spring break I have two exams.

So, if any SL'ers want to contact me, then well feel free, you have my email and my messengers.

Bye for now.

     Second Life is a creation of different people, which makes Second Life such a diverse place. Everyone has a varied view of what they want to create, whether that be objects or whom they want to be. So, it it quite understandable that people will misunderstand one another or just simply not agree and do not want to compromise and also develop feelings for one another in ways that can not be explained.  And perhaps, it is also somewhat understandable that people want to Roleplay and within that RP have IC only and not 'blur the lines' with OOC, because it creates 'drama'.

OK. Now, what is not understandable at all, is when a person says that they like you, when they do not even know your IC or OOC at all. 

Right. Also, the person describes  what they would want to do to you IC whilst talking 'at' you OOC, but yet when you stand your ground and refuse, they accuse you of 'having IC and OOC run together.'

Ummm. Let's see. I maintain my role pretty well. I do not let my OOC show because, I do not want it to affect mine or others roles. It creates an overlapping effect. So, this is why I chose or have chosen rather, a select few to whom I do actually show my OOC. They deserve it, they appericate it. They understand. They listen and they accept me how I am and we spend lots of time together as a group, we share we actually communicate using the 'beyond.'

However, this *person* has no idea about me or my IC whatsoever. I am surprised that they have any idea about anything besides how 'great' they think they are. A 20 year old 'boy, telling me not to cuss, because it's 'unladylike'. Fuck off, you twat! A little boy telling me, that I disrespected 'him' and that he is a 'rl Master' and I should treat him as such?

Yeah. Sure thing. I'll get right on that.

What amazes me is the audacity that some people have in regard to telling people how they should RP. No one can tell someone, 'THIS IS SL PEOPLE, DO NOT BRING YOUR RL INTO IT.'
Hello? Do you not live with five other people that are all into the same SL as you? I certainly doubt that you and your lot can sit there and talk about only irl matters irl and SL matters in SL only? Please.. I am sure that whilst on SL, one of you have IM'd the other and said, 'Hey, can you pass me that coke bottle over there by you.?' I mean really, something to that affect you have. 

SL is no different than talkers, MUDs or any other program which enables people to communicate. The basic foundation is the same, the basic formulas of bringing people together are the same. So, don't you sit there and say otherwise.

The lines always get blurred. No one can prevent it. You can not separate the inbetween from the equal parts on each side. You are not God, in any form. You are not a God in SL and you are most certainly not the God of me or my role.

What happened on SL tonight went certainly beyond the 'boundaries' in which was set by you and your lot.

The RP that kicked it all off was wrong. If R was any type of a Prince at all and seeing as he felt indeed threatened by C, then HE should have been the one to fight C, not A. He purposely made it to where there could have been an  'epic battle' between C and A, whom every knew were together. R had already said that he did not like weakness in a character, he said that was apart of his role, so when A, who is normally a 'weak' Fae character stands up to R, he can not deal and he orders the other warriors to 'defeat and torture' both C and A, because, he could not bring himself to do it, because he is too scared to fight C because, he would never be able to overcome C, and he is also too afraid to fight A because, for him to be pwned by a Fae.. would be the most humiliating thing in the entire RP. 

So, he gets the other Warriors, those that are close to C and A to 'go after' the two people that have quite a bit of skill with a blade, because his skill was too 'weak'. His actions spoke louder than maybe he intended, but to 'punish' a Fae for standing up to R and punishing a Cat for standing with the Fae... that is truly the ultimate display of RP fear that 'Prince' could ever show.
R had said that if A did not fight C, then he would 'tear off her head'. She stood there and said, 'Then tear off my head.' C stood his own ground and did not make one move against the Fae. He stood beside her. When A asked R why he wanted this done, he yelled and said, 'DO NOT QUESTION ME.' But note, he never did tear off her head. A continued standing her ground and said, that her and C are a combined force. R did not like that one bit. A and C showed more loyalty to each other than an entire RP sim has to R, which shows that love does prevail over evil. The Light can overpower the Darkness. And it does not matter if you are a Prince, a very evil Prince, at that, but there are things in RP life that you have no control over.

And this was all a result of making unwanted advances to my OOC and brining it into the RP. Which I knew would happen, but as normal, I gave the benefit of the doubt and after this incident, I am truly further sadden by the state of humanity. In this case, he blurred the lines and could not handle the result of it. R's RP did not develop, did not create a overall progression in a proactive manner that contributed to the RP, for he allowed my rejection of him OOC blur the lines in a very ill manner. 

But in the case of C and A and the others who did not follow his orders, the lines that were blurred, held true and helped to maintain them. C and A's characters developed, it strengthen their RP and this was clearly seen by the others.  And what makes good loyal standing RP relationships? True OOC friendships. So, I say, blur the lines, just blur the lines, because that is what makes serious and True RP.

As we have seen here, there is always a 'battle' for good and evil, light and dark in RP and IRL...and when the lines are blurred and run together, then the battlefield because a lot more difficult, but with Pure Light and True Friends... that battlefield will never be fought alone.

No matter what role you have or what role you want to act, there will always be that irl emotion, those irl feelings that are creating that role. A monitor is not a true 'difuser',  for it actually acts as an 'enhancer'.

I dedicate this post to the VOSAC.